Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I Have Nothing to Write About

Well, that's how it feels at least. I just can't get started. I find it difficult to focus on material for this blog. Self doubt has started to creep in.

I could write about the goings-on in the garden, the in-fighting greenfinches, the cheeky squirrels, the blackbird splashing in the bath, the new bird feeder stand in black metal and preying cats, but I don't.

I could write about the progress of the book I am trying to write (in Swedish), currently at around 100 A4 pages after a lot of editing (deleting mostly), how I struggle sometimes to write anything for long periods of time, the joy of actually achieving something, but I don't.

I could write about my part-time work at a boarding house where I sleep in an uncomfortable bed, supervise spotty teenagers and drink lots of tea, but I don't (partly because of confidentiality).

I could write about how I invigilate GCSE and A-level exams, but that would be plain boring, so I don't.

I could write about life as a civilian dependent in a NATO community in Germany, the imminent relocation of half of this community to the UK, the many second-hand cars in the main car park people are trying to sell before they leave, the anxiety of many colleagues because of an uncertain future, knowing the whole garrison will close in a few years' time, but I don't.

I could write about our own situation, where to move next, where to settle and eventually retire, Sweden (where only I have lived), France (where we only have a holiday home) or the UK (where both of us have lived), but I don't.

I could write about my health and the complication of doctors trying to establish which type of diabetes I have got, type 2 or 1.5 (LADA), but I don't.

I could write about the joy of still having my mother (87), my son and two grandchildren, other family and friends, but I don't.

Why don't I?

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Zuzana said...

I think you just did.;) Write about all of it, that is.;)
And believe me, all of it is super interesting.;)
But I know how you feel, I myself have been feeling a bit uninspired and I have also noticed most of my blog friends publish less frequently as well.;) Perhaps it is a contagious blog bug.;)
Have a great week,

oreneta said...

That's really cute!

Expats Again said...

Writer's block? Or it might be that springtime is calling you to engage in more outdoor activities. I for one would love to hear more about all of these topics. Give it some time and the writers' muse will inspire you again. Loved reading what you just wrote!

Limningedge said...

You got it Zuzana!
However, tis the season ... as I feel the same, even having trouble finding photos ... oh dear, WHAT can the matter be?
MUST be the changing of the season ... maybe I can write about that! ;-)

swenglishexpat said...

Zuzana, Oreneta, Expats Again and Limningedge - Thank you all for your positive comments. Yeah, maybe it is the old thing about "pulling yourself together and just getting on with it". And actually, I might unintentionally have drawn up a short list, a draft for several blog posts! :-)

LadyFi said...

Thank goodness you didn't write about all that! ;-)

Seems as though you have a lot of worry and decisions right now... could that be blocking you?

I notice that a lot of people are not blogging or not visiting... guess that the better weather is here and people are out enjoying it!

LadyFi said...

Clarification: when I said thank goodness you didn't write about that - what I really meant is that you already did. Not that it would be boring - quite the opposite!

Would love to hear more about your life.

swenglishexpat said...

LadyFi - Thanks, I am trying to work my way out of it. See next post.